My own journey through the silence

My own journey through the silence
br for many years, I have p resisted silence for fear of what was. Never realized that I would find myself and my greatest asset peaceful. Before I dived into the silence deep would think to blame, condemn and bothers me. My thoughts were hateful and about other people and I. I lived in difficult decisions and I was constantly tormented. In an attempt to drown out in my mind I was still very rare. In my car radio or a band was always on. When I got home, I would immediately on my TV, and sometimes it and my radio. If I couldn't hear I will sing the TV, where I was in my apartment or loud before me count only so I was able to close the pounding in my head. I was on the phone and tried to get even for a few minutes in a conversation. If a short conversation that I would try to get it to contact anyone else. If this doesn't work, I am me talk, or a scenario and the character back to me talking all the time, television, radio or tape in the background blabbing. Sometimes in my sleep I woke up in my speech./p Yoga and meditation have me in silence led for a visit. And believe me, I don't. But I was so emotionally and physically tortured at this moment I have tried everything. Meditation was very noisy and annoying for me. I felt my whole body trembling from fear, self hatred and frustration. I felt compelled to mention. To turn off the sound, screaming in my mind the most difficult task that I had to do was. But for me, I had to hang, because I do not have a life. I had zero peace and was told that this is the key to peace, I mean the ability to lock, dreams and KReativität I felt tried slipping. I was desperate. That is why is my journey began quietly./p as I went slowly in the quiet atmosphere of the Interior I have my own anger, forgiveness and hard charge of all were faced. When I arrived I was my own twisted mind, that this measure is a ridiculous feeling, and I saw very well and was despised by some observers, even God. But I'm afraid most of my own anger was because here in the game over the top, completely uncontrollably and seemed without restrictions. Usually, anger directed at me, then someone in the past is rejected me, hurt me, and teased me taunting me. The anger was the wildest I've ever met. The face I had to fix it. I had to hear complaints and do something about it. The anger was not gone, can easily be mitigated. I had the questions screaming in my mind I know not much with, how she sounded irrational to know where the meat fix these problems and everyone. I went to the advice I got Reiki and yoga and meditation white almost every day./p to anger came to damage. I never knew how much pain I was also buried. I had never bothered to know in this part of me. But I was with this feeling of many meditations and sit through the various yoga classes. I was getting access to the attractions I decided. I was determined to do everything I could find./p there to solve a tremendous amount of fear in me. I realized I had a very scary person now. I became painfully aware of people who do not like me. The fear of making mistakes and the fear and suspicion, that I the people hurt me./p every time, when I put my own silence ein trat, was an intense encounter of my toughest critics, and then try to restore and to solve, and meet all their needs. It went into battle, and every day I was attacked and attacked by my bitterest enemies on the one hand and then felt shock, grief and sorrow, the ravages of war and the feeling is too small to do something about all this. But finally I did. I heard. I prayed for forgiveness, and I asked how well to do and what I could do change./p I spent more time with me and I made my enemies and critics in the top of my most loyal supporters and friends. I cured my sorrow. I comforted me with anxiety. I am at peace with me. I was good to sit with me. I turned the radio, TV, and I went into me, and the divine, in silence. I began to trust me and I in connection with the silence and more. I took tackle immediate action and solving problems came. Many more ideas and information was then unveiled. My creativity again starting to rise. Fear disappeared and now I have my resources, talents, skills and potentials to their largest destination education and promotion and strengthening of consciousness on the planet. To access the silence you can make a big impact and discover amazing strength, strength /p